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Across this table. I use to see my baby boy across this table. Someone I had to tuck under my wing to protect from this crazy world. One who I would hold up in the shower and sing to. And one who would end my night falling asleep on my chest with his little baby snores. Now, when I look across this table I see a beautiful strong young boy. One who has personality, opinions, confidence and tough questions for me. Our conversations are deep now and no longer as sheltered as they once were. Now, you ask me directly…”Dad,...

Hustle & Fellowship. All my life I’ve been known as a hustler. I’ve always wore multiple hats at every stage of my life, it has always been like that. Because of that, I have a small circle of friends who do the same and are self employed. I often (as I’ve shared) venture off and join them to not only help, but learn. I’m always learning and I’ll be that way till GOD brings me home. But here’s the thing… When you’re my age, getting together with your friends becomes difficult for various reasons. Marriage, Kids, Job, Life in general…...

When the boys began playing sports…my life changed My competitive gene came back…the fire I had as a kid was re-lit I noticed something immediately at practices and games Dads were disengaged and off in another world Most were out of shape, out of touch and face down in their phones Their kids on the other hand were training, playing, competing and hoping Dad didn’t miss a play I despised it, in fact it brought me back to a very dark place I remembered looking at the stands and seeing nobody or just my mom I remember the feeling of...

Mornings Like This. Some days I wake up and feel at peace. At peace with my life and who I am. Not dwelling on any of my past shit. And completely thankful for my current state of being. Mornings like this, the coffee hits different and so does the prayer. The birds are quiet and the roads aren’t busy just yet. The sun is creeping but seems a little slow today…and I’m fine with that. More time to journal, more time to stretch and prepare for todays challenges. I used to take these morning for granted. I don’t know how...

The times I forgot.   To say thank you for the little things The ability to use my hands to earn a living Designing, Painting, Lifting, Hammering My legs to kneel and work, run and train, squat to lift My back to carry my kids, equipment and tools My feet to balance for all those things For a clear mind to continue learning into my 50’s after some very dark times A heart strong enough to keep me pushing everyday but more importantly to love and feel loved  Eyes to see there is so much more to life if I...